Half a world away.

Ieri, mi-am reamintit cum e sa fiu eu. Cum e sa contez. Asa, egoist si cu toata tragerea de inima, cu tot interesul pentru mine si ceea ce imi trece prin cap. Am avut senzatia ca m-am re-pierdut, doar ma mai gasisem odata si mai si scrisesem despre asta aici. 
„Inclina capul si ma tintuieste in continuare cu privirea: ma simt intrebata in tacere daca ieri am fost eu si daca da, daca o sa mai fiu. Ii raspund clipind, afirmativ, ca intr-un film Hollywoodian in care pacientul e rugat sa clipeasca de doua ori daca incuviinteaza raspunsul. „Si maine, si peste un an? Dar in weekend?” Ii zambesc, stiu ca un raspuns negativ ar strica aranjamentul tacit dar nu-i confirm deloc obligata ca azi, maine, in weekend sau peste un an, voi fi tot eu si-mi va placea.” 
Sunt tot eu, tot cu „ferestrele” deschise, chiar daca pe alocuri par fie nesterse, fie cu plasa opaca.
Cu putine intrebari si cu mai multe certitudini, mai descopar cate ceva despre mine. Pe unele le descopera altii si mi le zic, pe altele le ascund eu si-apoi imi fac curaj sa le dau drumul.
Cum se simte autocunoasterea asta? Pai…cam asa:
You’re half a world away, standing next to me
It seems that every day, I’m loosing you almost invisibly
Though you are near, I can’t reach that far
Across to where you are and so you stay
Just half a world away
And I would cross the universe for you
What good would it do if you weren’t even there?
Till you return and until your way is clear
I will be here, not half a world away
You’re half a world away and no one is to blame
If love outlives its day and turns into an ember from a flame
I love you as before till words will be no more
Till I can’t find a way to where you stay
Just half a world away
And I would cross the universe for you
But what good would it do if you weren’t even there?
Till you return and until your way is clear
I will be here, not half a world away
You’re half a world away
Ce bine ca invat sa ma aduc inapoi de la capatul lumii, ce bine ca dau peste oameni care-mi mai deschid ochii. Chiar asa…ce bine ca Dumnezeu mi-i scoate in cale, chiar si atunci cand ei nu stiu asta ori nici nu-s prea convinsi ca El exista.
E o luni cum n-au mai fost multe, de prea mult timp. Ah, there is a time for everything under the sun…a time to smile and just another time to…find yourself over and over again.
Een glimlach!

 

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Viata intr-un numar limitat de cuvinte.

Sunt unele dimineti in care viata-mi rasuna pur si simplu in urechi. Ca azi…cu ochii in salarii si grade personale, in pline pregatiri de sprint Agile dar cu urechile astupate de casti mici, albe, am auzit ca prin vis atat:

” If you are committed to someone, you will not allow yourself to find perfection in someone else.”

Trei cantece mai tarziu, m-am intors sa caut toate versurile. Si-apoi, mi-am amintit cuvinte, propozitii, fraze: „You are shinning, I like it.”, „You look amazing, what is going on?”, „You look fresh.”

Well…I look happier but I am still committed to you, despite of whoever else might seem perfect or even be so. And I know you know it too. I will be loving you not to the moon and back but to THE END.

 

Walking down 29th and Park, I saw you in another’s arms
Only a month we’ve been apart, you look happier.

Saw you walk inside a house, he said something to make you laugh
I saw that both your smiles were twice as wide as ours. Yeah, you look happier, you do.

Ain’t nobody hurt you like I hurt you but ain’t nobody love you like I do
Promise that I will not take it personal, baby, if you’re moving on with someone new.

‘Cause baby you look happier, you do, my friends told me one day I’ll feel it too
And until then I’ll smile to hide the truth, but I know I was happier with you.

Ain’t nobody hurt you like I hurt you, but ain’t nobody need you like I do
I know that there’s others that deserve you but my darling, I am still in love with you.

Baby, you look happier, you do, I knew one day you’d fall for someone new
But if he breaks your heart like lovers do just know that I’ll be waiting here for you.

 

 

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